Question by a PooraPagal Visitor :

Age:: 19-25

Gender:: Female

Ethnicity:: Pakistani / Indian

Hmmm Its very first time im seeking help online, but i just sow this site and hmmm had to try God knows maybe it can help me somehow..

At this moment my life is totally a mess,I dont know what to do and where to go, whom ti trust and whom not to..Im quite a poitive girl, and try to see the bright side of any situation, but hmmm right now i dont see any light let go bright side…I have faith in God but i also believe he wants us to struggle and find the answers and to know what life is all about..

Im under medication and just Recently i got memory loss,i have no idea whats been happening in my life the past 3 years and my life now is TOTALLY oposite and different from what i remember.. I have lost my friends dear to my heart, and i have made new friends, how that happend i have no clue..we have moved in a new place, how that happendi dont know, i know nothing…Life is just completely up side down.. I have been told that i knew this will happen that my medication might affect my memory, so i wrote a 5pages letter which i got now, my own handwriting was more than enuf to get me shocked hmmm,though its just words for me as i can feel the feeling behind those words i read, but still im confused like anything…

Life is like a dark and dark path and im in there somewhere in the middle, cant go back and im scared to death in taking a step ahead hmmm, i dont know what to do… my parents tell me something else my Dr something else and my friends tells me something else, their talks dont match… deep inside i think i know who to believe as i got some facts but im so scared to say or so something that i might regret getting back my memory, what if i say something that hurt ppl close to me, what if i dont say something and i lose the most precious one i had?

What should i do? Just keep quiet and cut myself from everyone untill i remember or just go with the flow? Yes i trust God and I know i have faith he will help me, my friends and my family through this, but my every sec is like hell for me.. My mind is blank and its too painful to not say anything in return when i get so much care and so much love hmmm…

Do give some advice, will be forever grateful.. Thanx!

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Reply from PooraPagal

The situation seems to be very confusing yes, but ofcourse everything and everyone has a reason to be on this earth. Some are here to teach others about how life can sometimes turn upside down so we should always be thankful to God for what we have, and for others it’s a sign that they are the chosen ones that are given this test because God knows they can manage it.

The situation you explained above is ofcourse medically possible so we won’t look away from that. But you also stated that you have a handwritten letter that you wrote, well if there is anything you can trust then obviously that can be one major thing to consider. As to you not feeling anything from the letter or the things you hear, that ofcourse is something you know as well that you don’t remember anything, therefore you won’t remember the feelings and emotions either associated with it.

As for your doctor and parents saying something else and friends saying something else. Well ask yourself and ask your heart, what does that say. In a memoryloss the brain is affected, but the rest of the things inside you the soul the hands the eyes they do carry some memory as well. It depends how you want to move ahead, with a smile on your face realizing that you had the most special thing ever, or want to cut yourself off from things that you warned yourself against in the letter.

Take it slowly and yet again, trust yourself trust God and with a complete faith in friendship and genuine people. You will see the true meanings behind what people say and why they say it.

Life is a beautiful thing, so just hold onto the ones that care for you and go beyond any limits to help you go through this painful time.